Friday, December 4, 2009

I'm just a little girl....

It has been so long since I wrote I can't even pretend to get caught up. I have however hurt my back really bad and the lawyer won't even call me back on my disability for being crazy...I tried to go to sleep tonight and just can't. I usually love to sleep. I turned the light out and just started crying and this came in my head....

I am just a little girl, in a great big soft bed,
In a ton of pain, and all alone
The pain never ends....it only changes
I finally know what's real tho....
But real is way to hard to handle
I liked my old, crazy, fun, colorful world
I don't like what's real, there is to much pain
All the pretty colors are gone now
Maybe they were never real
But the pain is real
Jake is real.
But I can't take care of him, I can't take care of me
That's real and the pain is real
I'm just a little girl, in a great big soft bed
All alone, and in pain that's real

Wow....I just needed to send this out in the corked bottle into the ocean.....catch