Hi,
What a day!? Very mellow and confusing. I started out tired. That is sooo never good for me. I had nightmares most of the night. I woke up at least 4 times. So then I slept in and didn't get the things I needed to get done, done.
I ate egg whites with cheese and sausage patties. I let myself get hungry after that. I will do better on that one. I ate lots of fruit today tho. Fried chicken, ice cream, I found some gluten free choc chip cookies....so I ate 4 of them....crazy!!
I walked in place and did crunches, drank water and breathed. I will get better at this! I will get better at this!
I believe, and it was backed up by a friend, that.... a person is interested in me. I have no idea how to figure this out. It makes me feel kind of sick. Why would someone be interested in me? I have no idea how I feel about him. He is very kind and nice. He takes very good care of the people around him. Sooo opposite of anyone I have ever been interested in. Ha! I just don't know how to handle it.
Kisses
Monday, May 4, 2009
Sunday, May 3, 2009
Happy Sunday
Hi,
Nice day today! Me and a friend went to visit some other friends in another congregation. It was in a very small town. I could live there in a heart beat. I like small towns. It was such a refreshing day. We went to breakfast and wandered around town, ate and ice cream and sat by a river. Water is so refreshing! I had a moment or 2 of panic and not being able to calm down. The ice cream helped. Fat calms me down. I need to find another way to do it. Maybe a walk by the river would of been better. I dealt with it tho.
My friend has been working on getting healthy for over a year now. She has lost over 30 pounds. HA........ she said I inspired her. I have not lost any weight. I am working on it tho. I have not gained any weight. I was gaining about 5 pounds a year. Not a lot of weight....In 11 years it has been over 40 pounds. My goal is to eat veggies everyday this week! That is very doable! Is that a word?
I am walking in place during commercials. I am moving! I am breathing! I am successful! Moving is key for me!! I want to make a new dress. It is amazing the feeling of power and control and well being I can have. It is either all or nothing. I have 2 speeds. On of Off. Lets choose On.
I feel good, I feel love, nice!
Kisses
Nice day today! Me and a friend went to visit some other friends in another congregation. It was in a very small town. I could live there in a heart beat. I like small towns. It was such a refreshing day. We went to breakfast and wandered around town, ate and ice cream and sat by a river. Water is so refreshing! I had a moment or 2 of panic and not being able to calm down. The ice cream helped. Fat calms me down. I need to find another way to do it. Maybe a walk by the river would of been better. I dealt with it tho.
My friend has been working on getting healthy for over a year now. She has lost over 30 pounds. HA........ she said I inspired her. I have not lost any weight. I am working on it tho. I have not gained any weight. I was gaining about 5 pounds a year. Not a lot of weight....In 11 years it has been over 40 pounds. My goal is to eat veggies everyday this week! That is very doable! Is that a word?
I am walking in place during commercials. I am moving! I am breathing! I am successful! Moving is key for me!! I want to make a new dress. It is amazing the feeling of power and control and well being I can have. It is either all or nothing. I have 2 speeds. On of Off. Lets choose On.
I feel good, I feel love, nice!
Kisses
Saturday, May 2, 2009
Be prepared and forgetful is all good!
Dear Me,
Cause it's all about me ;) I have walked every other day this week. WOO HOO I am happy! 3/4 of a mile each time. You go girl.
I have an opportunity for a 2nd position at work that I am capable of doing. It is in off hours, I won't have to deal with many people at all. I am praying like crazy. If I can do the job and it is right for me. I am very grateful for this opportunity. I followed my instinct. I mentioned a mathematical way of looking at it to a fellow worker. I wanted to go talk to the boss. The fellow worked discouraged me to do so. I felt in my heart and or gut that I should go ask the boss. I waited until it was welling up in me and I called my boss. Because of the call and the honesty and dignity I showed when I was refused by my boss, I got a call back the next day to go ahead and apply. They are able to make an exception. I am honored to have been considered. Thank you. I believe it is because I try to treat people nice. I understand both sides of the issue. There are other applicants! But I got the chance. Nice!!
I saw the Crazy Dr on Thursday. Tough session. We are doing job consoling. Ouch. I was so overwhelmed with statements that I needed to check if they applied to me. I know who I used to be and who I want to be. I so don't know who I am now! She told me it's OK to say "no, not right now, I don't want to do that kind of work right now. Nothing is forever. It all can change. Maybe later." Whew what a relief. That took so much self imposed pressure off me.
When I left the office is when my boss called me and said I could apply. I had to get the app in that afternoon tho cause I was booked the rest of the week. I was driving around in circles. I couldn't go home yet and I couldn't figure out what to do. I tried to go to the store and get ice cream. HA I didn't have my wallet with me. I remembered the choc pudding in the fridge. YES!! IT IS SUGAR FREE!! It is made with tofu. Substitution. That is key. Well, and being prepared. I ate a good lunch, filled out the app, babysat a friends kids, WALKED, and watched the "Wizard of Oz." I felt good because I did good!
Friday: I was with some friends in the morning. Very fun. We went to breakfast for a break. Then went and saw a friend who is in adult foster care. She is an encouragement. Very strong and speaks her mind! I sat in the car and talked to a friend for a couple of hours. I drank ice tea with caffeine and I didn't eat at a regular time. I could not get my blood sugar to regulate and my heart was crazy. Wow caffeine is not that good for me anymore. I used to love the buzz. Now, not so much!
Saturday: Didn't do a whole lot. When I woke up my eye was swollen shut. I think I got a spider bite or something. Ouch it hurts! Walked 3/4 mile. Way to go, I felt so much better after!
I am off. Kisses
Cause it's all about me ;) I have walked every other day this week. WOO HOO I am happy! 3/4 of a mile each time. You go girl.
I have an opportunity for a 2nd position at work that I am capable of doing. It is in off hours, I won't have to deal with many people at all. I am praying like crazy. If I can do the job and it is right for me. I am very grateful for this opportunity. I followed my instinct. I mentioned a mathematical way of looking at it to a fellow worker. I wanted to go talk to the boss. The fellow worked discouraged me to do so. I felt in my heart and or gut that I should go ask the boss. I waited until it was welling up in me and I called my boss. Because of the call and the honesty and dignity I showed when I was refused by my boss, I got a call back the next day to go ahead and apply. They are able to make an exception. I am honored to have been considered. Thank you. I believe it is because I try to treat people nice. I understand both sides of the issue. There are other applicants! But I got the chance. Nice!!
I saw the Crazy Dr on Thursday. Tough session. We are doing job consoling. Ouch. I was so overwhelmed with statements that I needed to check if they applied to me. I know who I used to be and who I want to be. I so don't know who I am now! She told me it's OK to say "no, not right now, I don't want to do that kind of work right now. Nothing is forever. It all can change. Maybe later." Whew what a relief. That took so much self imposed pressure off me.
When I left the office is when my boss called me and said I could apply. I had to get the app in that afternoon tho cause I was booked the rest of the week. I was driving around in circles. I couldn't go home yet and I couldn't figure out what to do. I tried to go to the store and get ice cream. HA I didn't have my wallet with me. I remembered the choc pudding in the fridge. YES!! IT IS SUGAR FREE!! It is made with tofu. Substitution. That is key. Well, and being prepared. I ate a good lunch, filled out the app, babysat a friends kids, WALKED, and watched the "Wizard of Oz." I felt good because I did good!
Friday: I was with some friends in the morning. Very fun. We went to breakfast for a break. Then went and saw a friend who is in adult foster care. She is an encouragement. Very strong and speaks her mind! I sat in the car and talked to a friend for a couple of hours. I drank ice tea with caffeine and I didn't eat at a regular time. I could not get my blood sugar to regulate and my heart was crazy. Wow caffeine is not that good for me anymore. I used to love the buzz. Now, not so much!
Saturday: Didn't do a whole lot. When I woke up my eye was swollen shut. I think I got a spider bite or something. Ouch it hurts! Walked 3/4 mile. Way to go, I felt so much better after!
I am off. Kisses
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