Be prepared and forgetful is all good!

Dear Me,

Cause it's all about me ;) I have walked every other day this week. WOO HOO I am happy! 3/4 of a mile each time. You go girl.

I have an opportunity for a 2nd position at work that I am capable of doing. It is in off hours, I won't have to deal with many people at all. I am praying like crazy. If I can do the job and it is right for me. I am very grateful for this opportunity. I followed my instinct. I mentioned a mathematical way of looking at it to a fellow worker. I wanted to go talk to the boss. The fellow worked discouraged me to do so. I felt in my heart and or gut that I should go ask the boss. I waited until it was welling up in me and I called my boss. Because of the call and the honesty and dignity I showed when I was refused by my boss, I got a call back the next day to go ahead and apply. They are able to make an exception. I am honored to have been considered. Thank you. I believe it is because I try to treat people nice. I understand both sides of the issue. There are other applicants! But I got the chance. Nice!!

I saw the Crazy Dr on Thursday. Tough session. We are doing job consoling. Ouch. I was so overwhelmed with statements that I needed to check if they applied to me. I know who I used to be and who I want to be. I so don't know who I am now! She told me it's OK to say "no, not right now, I don't want to do that kind of work right now. Nothing is forever. It all can change. Maybe later." Whew what a relief. That took so much self imposed pressure off me.

When I left the office is when my boss called me and said I could apply. I had to get the app in that afternoon tho cause I was booked the rest of the week. I was driving around in circles. I couldn't go home yet and I couldn't figure out what to do. I tried to go to the store and get ice cream. HA I didn't have my wallet with me. I remembered the choc pudding in the fridge. YES!! IT IS SUGAR FREE!! It is made with tofu. Substitution. That is key. Well, and being prepared. I ate a good lunch, filled out the app, babysat a friends kids, WALKED, and watched the "Wizard of Oz." I felt good because I did good!

Friday: I was with some friends in the morning. Very fun. We went to breakfast for a break. Then went and saw a friend who is in adult foster care. She is an encouragement. Very strong and speaks her mind! I sat in the car and talked to a friend for a couple of hours. I drank ice tea with caffeine and I didn't eat at a regular time. I could not get my blood sugar to regulate and my heart was crazy. Wow caffeine is not that good for me anymore. I used to love the buzz. Now, not so much!

Saturday: Didn't do a whole lot. When I woke up my eye was swollen shut. I think I got a spider bite or something. Ouch it hurts! Walked 3/4 mile. Way to go, I felt so much better after!

I am off. Kisses